okay...

So yeah... I have not written on here for a couple of days. I didn't want to seem like a weird-o who blogs everyday of his life even if it just consisted of him making toast and doing laundry. I don't want to be that guy. I don't really want to be any guy, I just kinda thought of that. I don't really want to be labeled. If you haven't caught the purpose of this blog (which is just me writing stuff that I think about, and stuff that has spoken to me through being a student here at CIU) then I am sorry and don't mind if you don't subscribe. Anyway, I really don't want to be labeled. It sucked in HS b/c I was the President of the Student Body (not bragging, trust me). So I got labeled as the Popular Guy that played football and was a good Christian guy. I didn't really like that.

We kinda just talked about this sort of thing in my acting class last Tuesday night. I asked the question why is there no really good Christian Movies? I mean don't get me wrong, Left Behind is okay, I am not knocking on any Christian film makers, but we really don't have a Christian Media culture that is of good quality. I know that we have tons of magazines and books, but I am talking about movies, plays, music even. How come any band that wants to be played on the "Christian" radio stations, has to sign with a Christian label, or proclaim all the time, non-stop that they are a strictly Christian band. Some times in life there are going to be times that you aren't going to want to trust God. (you should always want to, but that's not the point) There are times that I wanted to ask God why he did things. And yes, I have been extremely mad at him before, and felt so far from him, not knowing that he is right there with me. What if a band wants to write a song like that of Job, yelling at God, demanding things, b/c its real, and if you are a follower of Christ, you can't really say that there has been a time in your life that you have doubted Christ, been mad at him, or have wanted something from him that you know isn't right. And if you have, please contact me b/c I really would like to talk to you.
Sorry..... I kinda ranted there. I guess the basic principle that I am trying to get across is that art should speak to you, and the artist should do that art the way that he feels he wants to do it. If that artist is a follower of Christ, then Christ will shine through that art to the viewer/listener. And if it doesn't, if that artist was having a bad day, and did something that might not portray Christ in such an awesome way, then that is real! People need to see that Christians are real people, and we don't always sing "Lord I lift Your Name on High" all the time!! We screw up! We have bad days, we are not perfect. Trust me on this one, they know that we aren't perfect, they are looking at us non-stop usually anyway to see if we are. Wow, that's a lot of writing. Any comments or questions are gladly accepted.